Cut my wrists and black my eyes

I want to be skinny and pretty like her. :( I also like her hair ridiculously much.. I think I should dye mine as well... I'm still not sure about the colors though... Black and pink would be awesome. Or black and purple. Or blonde and aqua... Too many choices! D: Maybe I'll just go rainbow...

I went for an one hour walk a while back, and bought some diet energy drink from the store on my way back.. Still haven't eaten anything but one sugarfree dental drop... :D Well, now two. 8)

It's weird how I still have the urge to cut myself, although I feel completely fine and cheery... o.O It's sort of an addiction, a habit... It's really hard to let go of it. And i'm not even sure if I want to.

I was thinkin about weird stuff when I was walking home.
-If I was a boy, I'd want my name to be Benjamin.
-I'm way too critical about the ones I love. I always see theil faults and sometimes fail to see that they do what they do because of me... Like my mother making me eat... I quess she's just worried after all.
-I want to go totally emo again. I need a new wardrobe, I need to sell some of my old crappy clothes to make room for black skinny jeans and print t-shirts. 8)
-I still need to lose at least 10 kilograms
-I want some piercings! D:< Snakebites would be soooo awesome... too bad I don't have any money. And I don't have the guts to do it myself. :D
-I need to start writing more. :o And drawing. Since they're my favorite things to do! I don't get why I don't spend more time doing the things i LIKE.